After typing a message to a friend, I read what my fingers had just spelled out… and came to a realization that took me quite a while to arrive at.
It’s so hard for me to allow myself to hope anymore… But I do believe he is beginning to show me that when I really do begin to believe and accept that this life is not my own, he can use me, even if it’s just in little ways. And this is exactly where my hope – and worth – should be.
And I’m thinking it’s probably one of those things that I will be learning and forgetting and re-learning for the majority of my life.
Thanks for sharing this, Megan. You are not alone in this, my friend. It seems to be a consistent challenge for me also.
I’ve been challenged this morning by something else you said on FB yesterday about your good run with Autumn. I need to make sure I am “running” with others. It helps me stay encouraged and keeps me from feeling alone in this rough and tumble world we live in. It is so easy for me to do things alone – I do it at work in my high walled cubicle or my 4 wheeled office so then it carries over into the rest of my life. I make excuses like: its faster, more efficient, blah blah blah. But I need to make the time and effort to include others in those little things I do. I think I’m going to call my roommate to go grocery shopping with me after work. : ) Thanks, M!
By: wendy sue on February 11, 2009
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